Milestones

So here I am..5 weeks PREGNANT! How freaking exciting is that? I made it to my baby aspirin phase! Popped my first one this morning! So my routine is as follows, prenatal and baby aspirin in the am, 2nd prenatal when I get home from work, and my 1 mg folic acid before bed. So worth it!! My first appointment is October 3rd at 9 am. A very long 17 days away. I picked the 9 am appt bc I knew I would die sitting around all day! I took the earliest one they had! It's going to be such an awesome day for two reasons: first because I have my appointment, and second because I'm meeting up with Brooke, RaShelle, and Laurel for lunch that day!!!!! Can't wait to meet RaShelle and Brooke and to hang out with Laurel again! 

We spent the weekend hanging out with friends, made it to church this morning, and then followed that up with a 3 hour nap. The browns were on tv and no one cares about that. Tomorrow night, my beloved Bengals will take on the Steelers live from my second home- Paul Brown Stadium. Who Dey baby! So sad that we aren't going to the game, but we won't be missing any others. Believe that! So I trust all of you will be wearing your tiger stripes and cheer cheer cheering for the orange and black. Yay!

Otherwise, not much else going on with us. I need to find a hobby to get me thru these next 17 days. Any suggestions? 

Thanks for reading :)

Happiness, Love, and BFP!!

So girls, as you know, it finally happened. I got another BFP!!!!! So tomorrow I will be 4 weeks officially. I am so so so very excited but also very nervous since I've had 2 miscarriages already. I will be starting my baby aspirin in one week! I will hopefully be getting the results of my beta and progesterone blood draws on Monday, and hopefully that will give me some peace of mind. My first appointment isn't until October 3rd-yikes! That's a whole 25 days away!!! Any suggestions of something to keep me busy for this waiting period? I feel like its ages and ages away.  I am very excited and blessed to be pregnant again and really hoping third times a charm for us. Not really feeling any different yet other than a little tired. Continue your prayers for me please. I appreciate it more than I could ever tell you! 

Nothing else really going on in our lives to share. Same old stuff :) 

Tomorrow is week 1 of Bengals football....Who Dey! 

New Life, New Beginnings

Well everyone, I wish I had anything exciting to tell you about myself...but I don't! I have entered another TWW and officially off work for the next four days! Woo hoo! I'm kicking off my day tomorrow with a massage after I take Zoe to the groomer! Then we are going to a high school football game with some friends, and a cookout on Saturday! Yay!

So anyways, TWW. Yep. One of those again. I am feeling pretty optimistic for this cycle. I ovulated right on time this time. I never had a problem getting pregnant before when I ovulate on time. I think last month my body was just a little whacked out still. So please send some prayers our way!! I would be so over the moon excited if we got pregnant this month!!!!

Just wanted to share some other exciting news...our friend had her baby girl the other day. Miss Makenzi Rose is so adorable and I really enjoyed holding her! I thought it was going to be very hard to visit, but it turned out pretty good. Not that I didn't wish it was me, but I just thought I would be a lot more emotional about it. More news is that my very best BFF Ashley had her first ultrasound this week and is about 10 weeks along with a perfect little bean. She also got engaged today (I knew the whole time...what a fun thing to be involved in!) I felt honored to be asked for advice and to help pick out a ring that I just knew she would love. So GOD IS GOOD! Lots of very exciting things happening for some very special people in my life. Even though I have some rough days, I never stop praying for them. I am ALWAYS going to be supportive for my very best friends. And I KNOW they will do the same for me when my time comes. Life isn't always fair-we all know that, but everything happens for a reason. Why is God making me wait for a baby when I own a home, have a loving husband, and we both have good jobs? I don't know! But He must have something really special in the plans for us. I cant wait to find out what those plans are, and I cant wait for the day I'm holding my own little miracle!

A New Month

So AF has come and gone....hooray! CD10 and I was going to start opks this morning but forgot and already peed. Haha! So I will start them tomorrow! Really hoping this is our month. It would be great timing for my hubby to be out of school for the summer! So not much is going on on our front.

In other news, we got a new dog! Her name is Zoe and she is super cute. Her and Harlow have been getting along great. The potty training again has just been a little difficult. I don't like accidents on my carpet! When Harlow was a puppy, we lived in a house with hardwood floors so accidents weren't as bad. Life is definitely crazy with two dogs! Dusty is a little sad that Harlow spends more time playing with Zoe and he doesn't get as many cuddles. Zoe was crate trained so we have been having her sleep in there and once she is potty trained then we will let her in the bed with us. Oh and when we get a king size bed (which is hopefully this fall/winter) she's a very playful and loving girl, and I really want her to be a great addition to our family. I know it takes a while to readjust with something new.

So here's to hoping for a BFP this month for me and a lot of other girls!

Life after BFN

Well, here we are again. As you all know, I got my BFN last week and now currently on CD 4. I was not as crushed as I thought I'd be, it definitely doesn't compare to a miscarriage. I'm not sure what to blog about since my TWW is over so I've decided to share some positives of not being pregnant this month. 
1. If I get pregnant on the next cycle, I'd be due at the end of may. My hubby is a teacher, so we would be off all summer as a family.
2. I have more time to save up my time off at work to hopefully take a full 12 weeks off. 
3. I can keep focusing on losing weight! 
4. I have more time to get this prescription folic acid in my system since I have this "condition" that I've talked about previously. 
5. I have desperately been wanting a new bedroom set and to upgrade to a king size bed- now it just may fit into the budget.
6. I am dying to go on a really nice vacation. If it takes a while to get pregnant again, then I may plan something for us next summer.

Those a just a few. Of course I would give anything to be holding a sweet little baby in my arms, but since I can't just yet, I can still do some things for myself. Dusty and I have also been considering getting another dog. We would love to have more fur babies to love and I think Harlow would love a playmate. We are weighing our pros and cons and will see what we think is best for our "family". 

A friend of ours is due with her second baby in about a week. She and I made a pact to be pregnant together. She's very fertile so she got pregnant on the first try, and here I am still with nothing. I am scared of how I will handle my emotions when her baby is here. So bittersweet for me knowing I could have one by now too. Please pray that I have the strength to keep it together when we go to congratulate the new parents (again) and meet baby Makenzi. 

ONE MORE THING I'm excited about is that football season is right around the corner. Hubby and I have Cincinnati Bengals season tickets and we LOVE going to all the games. This definitely keeps us busy and will hopefully help keep my mind off of all this TTC stuff a little bit. 

Take care everyone 
Kel 

No Test, No Stress

It's amazing how much of a better day you have when you don't have any tests in the house to use. Still no AF, so I guess that means I still have a chance. 12 days past the first day I got a positive opk. So I'm assuming 10-12 dpo? Maybe I was testing too early? Who knows!!! Geez....so anyways, I spent the morning cleaning the house, my step brother spent the night and hung out, and then went to my BFFs house and took Harlow swimming in their pond! She was the cutest little puppy swimmer! As my BFF (who is currently 7 wks preggo) and I sat and talked I shared with her my concerns for my next pregnancy. I am concerned that the baby aspirin won't be enough-i read some articles online where other doctors give their patients Lovenox/Heparin for my "condition". I am concerned with how I am supposed to not worry throughout my next pregnancy of if I will have another mc. How do you keep the worrying and stress down? It seems nearly impossible. Another mc is just not something I want to go thru again. So I'm waiting until next week to test again if AF doesn't show. Baby steps, I suppose. Gotta get that bfp first. How awesome would it be to be preggo with your BFF? It's like I want this MORE now just so I can share these moments with her. She's been my BFF for the last 6 or so years, and we've been thru a lot together. She's always been there for me! I pray for her every night that she has a healthy pregnancy so that she doesn't have to feel the pain that so many of us girls have felt. (Side note: every freaking blog I write makes me want to cry-when did I get so emotional?) Lastly, as my first original due date comes up in October, I want to do something to honor my sweet angel babies who I'll never get to hold. I was thinking of getting those lanterns that you release into the sky (no clue what they are called). Any one have a better idea? Thanks again for reading! 

Kel

So Friday night....here we are. Just spent the evening at the county fair with my hubby, mom, step brother, and niece. It was really run! I had some yummy food and watched my niece ride rides all night! So I got home and took another Preg test. Still negative :/ no pregnant symptoms, no AF symptoms, no clue what to think. What's a girl to do?! I'm officially out of tests so at least that will keep me from testing. If AF doesn't show by Monday then I will get another. Hoping that I'm just too early to test still, but trying not to get my hopes up because I really don't want to be crushed any further (if that's possible). Today is 11 days past the first day I got a smiley face on the opk. So I guess it depends exactly when I ovulated. Don't you all just hate this back and forth game? It's seriously stinks so bad. I never dreamed that having a baby would be this difficult. While at work the other night, a co worker and I got on the topic of ttc. She told me how she's had 3 mc and still ended up with 3 kids after fertility treatments. She offered to ever talk if I needed it or a shoulder to cry on, I almost cried right there! It was so nice of her to say that, and so nice that she knew exactly how I feel.  I truly believe that those who haven't been thru an mc just don't understand. Dusty and I have been going to church and praying more often hoping we can find some peace throughout this entire situation. I appreciate all the prayers you all have sent our way. And know that I'm praying for you all too! So I will leave you with a quote I saw on Pinterest. It says "Hope shines brightest in darkest moments". So remember, thru all of these dark moments we all experience we still shine thru with hope. This is the strongest group of women I know! We WILL get thru this!

With love,
Kel